Yeah, it's true that I'm undertaking this on one income vs. two. Yeah, I'm under some stress, and sure I'm not as cold this winter. But in some respects I'm just as cold - because now I cannot fit the mutinous booty into the overalls. So. I suppose that's one con to being overweight.
I'm a list maker. I like to make lists... shopping lists, packing lists, book lists, all kinds of lists. It seems fair that a list for cons to being a fat girl would be a good list to make. So here's my list while I am standing on the edge of doing something about it:
Some Cons to Being a Fat Girl:
-body aches when I wake in the morning
-mutinous booty eeks into other seats
-mutinous booty makes me not fit so well in the CrazyMobile
-cannot wear my overalls, and cannot zip my coat - thus negating the insulation argument
-blood pressure has GOT to be up
-feel bad about my body, and to a degree about myself in general
-don't want to even look in the mirror
-it is harder for a fat girl to get a job (yeah, I know it shouldn't be but IS)
-if I had to run up a field I couldn't
-the bladder doesn't *quite* seal as it ought to-tire easier
-people look at me strangely when I order dessert at a restaurant
-dude in the drive thru at Wendy's gives me the hairy eyeball when I order a diet coke to go with my Baconator (double)
-cannot sit on my balance ball without bursting it
-cannot lay on my back on the hard floor because the booty tips me over
-steps are hard to manage
-boy short panties look stupid on a fat girl (why oh why do they even sell them?)
-just a few changes would make a HUGE difference in my overall health
That's not an exhaustive list - far from it. But sometimes I need to remind myself why doing something to positively impact my health and well-being outweighs (ha ha ha) the lure of bacon cheese fries.
So tomorrow morning is weigh-in #1. I already have a good idea of what the scale will say, but having it official is part of the process. I think stopping stepping on the scale is one of the predominant factors in starting this slippery slide. So here I am, standing on the edge. It's a long drop I think but I have to do it.